next 3 hours

i have an exam within 3 hours.....a midterm.
i have just skimmed thru 20% of the syllabus. dont know how i m going to make it.and i m least worried about the exam. kind of 'ki achey jibone' feeling.
now i plan to take a shower. then manjafy for half an hour. then go to iba, and addafy for 1 hr, and then sit for the exam.

its a long time, that i have sat for an unprepared exam. have gone thru several impromptu presentations recently, but 'impromptu'exam....mmmmmmmmmm it has been days.

i still have time to cover atleast 80% of my syllabus, but not feeling like.iccha jokhon kortesena tokhon aar ki kora!

Update: 22/7
Got my answerscript yesterday.....got a 70 out of 100. a good output, considering the input :D

Happiest day in weeks

what did i start my day with? dont exactly remember. Not that its too important, but just that the day being a joyous one for me....i was just wondering.

I was supposed to have a quiz today. recent depression, frustations and stresses kept me awake all night long. as a result i used to go to bed early in the morning. this constantly kept me from attending my 8 o'clock classes. that led to the fact that i didnot know what the syllabus was, neither did i have any idea of the content of the chapters.hence i didnot study a word. mmmm i wasnt even in a mental state to study. so when the quiz was not taken i was one of the happiest people!

in the morning, i realised that tomorrow i am supposed to have a midterm, with a HUGE syllabus. needless to say, i wasnt aware of the exam, and neither did i study a word. the realization just freaked me out. and the news of postponing the exam, sounded as good as my favorite music.

on my way home, i told saba- my friend, that i have a feeing that theres a surprise waiting for me at home....something good is going to happen.
as i was saying my prayers, my cell alerted me of an sms. half way thru my namaz, i checked it......and bang! i got a B+ in a subject i expected to get a C

and around 3 hrs later dadu informed me of a new tuition offer!

what more is needed to rock a day???!!!!

i know most of the good news is related to studies, but those who know me, knows that i m a nerd in no way!

stressed

stress is a new flavor of emotion for me.
and the way it tasted made me feel sick.

No, i didnt yell at people,i didnt throw utensils, i didnt smash things, i didnt kick my cpu, i didnt bang my mouse....but i have behaved rudely with the people around me.Rude, but in a subtle way...enuff to hurt them.

at the utmost point i felt like telling my beloved teachers 'maaf chai....onek koshto paitesi', but ego-istic as i am: never will admit that i cannot take in any more!

i m only half way thru, and have more to go. dont know how i m going to manage. i have stopped communicating with people around me...in fear of making severe blunders, like many times in the past. yes, some people i do regularly spent time with; but they are only those, who are going thru the same stress as i am...

i would like to conclude by thanking my respectable teachers, for adding a new dimension to my life.teacher of IBA rules!!!!!


*hate the overuse of the word 'I' in writings, but couldnt help using it, for this writing!

to Tumpa

hi there
How are you?
well, I can guess.

Tumpa.....why do you expect so much?
only because a person cared for you, doesnt mean that, that person will care for you forever.
only because a person has given you importance, doesnt mean that, that person will give you importance forever.
only because you meant a lot to a person, doesnt mean that you will mean the same to that person forever.

Tumpa aint you mature enuff to sense these things? then still why do you get hurt? why does these things agonize you?

grow up babu.get over it. its high time that you learn to engulf the neglects.

regards,
Ayreen

Necessary Evil

Student : sir, what is consumer profile?

Sir : find out.....i wont tell you. Use your imagination, and creativity.

And now i m using internet, marketing and consumer behaviour books, my imagination and my creativity.....and still i m clueless.

On one hand all these is just making me go crazy.

On the other hand,the detest for IBA is increasing at an exponential rate.i cannt figure out when and from where all this repulsion has piled up! this i think is quite strange....an institution being so unpopular among its students. i guess the reason behind it is its teachers.

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