when?

talked to you few days back, you said that you cannot come.
talked to your brother today, he said that you will be coming.
understood that your brother means more to you!
i have nothing to say on that.
its ur life, u r to decide who means what to you.
maybe u lived longer with your family, so they mean more to you.
maybe u feel more attached to them for the same reason!

last time you came, after 4 years, for a month. and went to your brother, spent 15 of 30 days of ur holiday there.
of the last 3400 days (approximately) i have spent at most 100 days with you, rest of the days went in anticipation of these 100 days.
me being detached from my family: maybe u r the reason behind it.

but shouldnt you have understood? when your family means so much to you, then it should mean the same to me! i need my family as much as you do! my brothers mean just as much as your brothers mean to you!

abbu.... i long to be with my family too.
i want to have a family too.
its only one life i have, i dont want to feel so secluded for a lifetime.
when will you ever understand?

or should the question be: will you ever understand?

(**by family i mean parents and siblings)